The Influence Of Personal Experiences In Emily

Dickinson’s Poetry Essay, Research Paper

The Influence of Personal Experiences In Emily Dickinson’s Poetry

None of Emily Dickinson’s readers has met the woman who lived and died

in Amherst, Massachusetts more than a century ago, yet most of those same

readers feel as if they know her closely. Her reclusive life made understanding

her quite difficult. However, taking a close look at her verses, one can learn a

great deal about this remarkable woman. The poetry of Emily Dickinson delves

deep into her mind, exposing her personal experiences and their influence on her

thoughts about religion, love, and death. By examining her life some, and

reading her poetry in a certain light, one can see an obvious autobiographical

connection.

All the beliefs and emotions Emily Dickinson wrote about were based, in

one way or another, on the same aspect of her upbringing, which was religion.

During her childhood, life in Amherst was based strongly upon religion and

Puritan values. The distinctive Puritan virtues of simplicity, austerity, hard

work, and denial of flesh, were ever-present disciplines in Emily’s life (Sewall

22). Despite her stubborn denials to be labeled, she was very much of a ?New

Englander?. Cynthia Griffen Wolff, author of Emily Dickinson, points out that

Emily ?knew every line of the Bible intimately, quoted from it extensively, and

referred to it many more times than she referred to any other work… yet in

this regard she was not unusual by Amherst’s standards? (72). The most

prominent figure of religious virtues in her life was her father, Edward

Dickinson. Reading the Bible to his children and speaking in town of religious

ethics were daily events in his life. At home, he tried to raise his children

in the rigorous religion of their ancestors, however his methods appeared quite

harsh. People who knew the Dickinsons referred to Edward as a ?severe, latter-

day Puritan, a power-minded tyrant…?, and his home was often depicted as a ?

gloomy prison? (Sewall 8). In fact, Emily’s fear and awe of him seemed to

dominate her life. Although he read aloud from his Bible, conducted prayer

service in his home daily, and he educated his children in a strict Puritan way,

he himself was not quite a believer. He delayed conversion until well into

middle age, ?…displayed no mark of singular devotion, defined his vocation in

terms of business, and was not inclined to explore the mysteries of the Divinity?

(Wolff 125) It is possible that the paradox of faith which tore Emily’s mind

could have had its roots in her father’s own doubts.

No quandary in life presented Emily Dickinson with such wrenching

choices as the demand for conversion. Her doubts tempted her to rebel against

God, but her needs drove her toward faith in Him. Neither stance could overcome

the other, and neither could be reconciled. Emotionally, she lacked a direction

of beliefs, however there was one thing she was sure of – God existed. ?Reason

convinced her that there must be such a Being as God; and as to God’s existence

she seems never to have wavered? (Wolff 84). Believing that He was there only

gave her something solid to forsake. In a letter to her friend once she wrote, ?

…and I am standing alone in rebellion, and growing very careless…? (Sewall

375). However, it was only when she had achieved complete poetic independence

that she could confidently write in open defiance of God:

I reckon – when I count at all -

First – Poets – Then the Sun

Then Summer – Then the Heaven of God -

And then – the List is done -

But, looking back – the First so seems

To Comprehend the Whole -

The Others look a needless Show -

So I write – Poets – All -…

…And if the Further Heaven -

Be beautiful as they prepare

For Those who worship Them -

It is too difficult a Grace -

To justify the Dream – (Sewall 355)

On several occasions, Emily went as far as calling herself a pagan. The

bitterness with which the comment was made may have been aroused by the same

feeling as in the line ?Of Course – I Prayed – / And did God Care?? of one of

her poems. Unable to accept Heaven, she was left only with this brief world,

which, without Heaven, seemed somewhat of a dreadful place to her. She wrote in

a letter once a prayer for forgiveness for trying to enjoy life too much. ?Knew

I how to pray,? she wrote, ?to intercede for your Foot were intuitive, but I am

a Pagan? (Sewall 590), and then the poem:

Of God we ask one favor,

That we may be forgiven -

For what, he is presumed to know -

The Crime, from us, is hidden -

Immured the whole of Life

Within a magic Prison

We reprimand the Happiness

That too competes with Heaven

These religious doubts she harbored in her mind and so often expressed led her

to be seen as having renounced her faith and, most often, replaced it with a

belief in her own powers, especially those employed in her art. Charles

Anderson wrote that ?…her pained sense of estrangement from the religion of

her fathers lingered to the end, but so did the integrity that gave her courage

to go her own way, to continue her search for Heaven through poetry rather than

through a theology she could not accept.? (Bloom 35) Eventually she did find

Heaven, and she accepted it with open arms. She is said to have discovered

herself ?elected to receive the grace of God?. The relationship with God she

wrote of was much like a relationship of two people. For that reason, many of

her poems read as religious can also be seen as poems of love. An example of

one is this poem:

My River runs to thee -

Blue Sea! Wilt welcome me?

My River waits reply -

Oh Sea – look graciously -

I’ll fetch thee Brooks

From spotted nooks -

Say – Sea – Take Me!

One could interpret this poem as her need to be accepted by God, as well as a

love poem expressing her yearning for human companionship. This yearning, along

with other forms of love poems, is shown a countless number of times in her

works.

Emily Dickinson’s love poetry follows a similar pattern, one that is

both peculiar and frustrating. She brings together lovers, perfectly matched

and deeply in love. They are not unhappy, yet they are never allowed to be

together by some higher power. ?The same poetry that postulates marriage as the

ideal also accepts as a given that this marriage can never take place? (Wolff

387) Emily could have written love poetry celebrating the strength of a happy

marriage or even examining the difficulties of achieving that perfect union, but,

for the most part, she did not. Separation was too much a part of her real-life

relationships for her not to acknowledge it. For various reasons, the major

friendships and passionate relationships of her life ?…confirmed her deepest